Exercise and Panic

I ran three miles this morning in the Texas heat. When my heart begins to beat rapidly, I immediatly think about panic and start looking for a *safe* place. During my run today, I did have panic thoughts and feelings, but I kept running. In fact, I made myself run harder and faster. It felt good to face my panic in this way - although it was very scary - and there weren't many *safe places* along the trail.

I bring a Xanax, my credit card, and a cell phone when I run - "just in case". I also didn't drink coffee before my run, again, "just in case".

GOAL: Run 3 miles w/o Xanax AND with coffee. Then Run 3 miles w/o Xanax and Credit Card . Finally, run 3 miles w/o Xanax, Credit Card, or Cell Phone.

Then run 4 miles.

Small steps - soon I will be able to fly in airplanes again. Soon I will beat this phobia.

Gos