Highs and Lows

I drank way too much last night - not because I am a big drinker but because it feels good not to feel panic or anxiety when I'm a bit tipsy and relaxing on my couch. I realize this, but it's still pretty difficult to stop anaesthetizing myself.

I woke up tired.

Coffee does the trick in the morning. I ate some food and made a pot of half caffiene / half decaf. I'm on my second large cup and am feeling pretty hyped from the caffeine rush. I'm going to keep drinking coffee and ignore the nervous feelings brought on by the coffee.

Got a lot to do today - I hope I can fit it all in.

The biggest thing is a meeting with my panic doctor, Dr. Mike Telch from the University of Texas. I scheduled this meeting because I wanted to just chat a bit about my progress (or lack thereof) since our last sessions about a year ago. I'll go into detail about these sessions in subsequent blog posts.

GOS